:: Myself ::

i hate myself..for my ridiculous behavior..
i was like a stupid & useless person...
acting like a crazy man in school.
i felt guilty for what i had done.
i want to improve myself
then i made a promise to myself once,
that i will change myself..
to be a better person,
but it just wont work...
when exam is around,and i did nothing but
wasting my precious time on doing meaningless stuffs.
and i was wondering that how will i be
in the future with this kind of attitude?
some people asked me,
what kind of career i will choose to do in the future?
& i just answered them,
i don't know...
the reason of why i answered them
that i don't know is because that
i don't have enough confidence in me,myself..
that i will get a good job
& if i didn't
then i'll be looked down by the people around me,
laughing at me that i'm such a useless person..
i hate the sense of being underestimated...
so i tried to complete my work to satisfy my feelings,
but that's just an excuse
to make myself feel more better..
what i really want now,is to CHANGE!
change to be a more responsible & independent person.
I must change for my future!
& i shall not waste my time but to treasure it...
that's all for now,and if there's any mistake,
please correct me

Have A Nice Day
:)

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